Monday, April 24, 2006


Its Been Quite A While...

Okay, it has been quite a while since I blogged here. In fact, Its been a long while since I blogged any where. I guess generally speaking it hasn't really been a time thing, since I am now back on the unemployed doles once again.

As for the migraines, I am still having 4 to 5 of them a week and currently am going through another cluster headache cycle where I'm averaging some of them each day too. Overall though, I guess I am doing a little better in that I am getting to the point where I can function more with one of the "usual" migraines without having to hibernate to a dark room or hug a toilet each & every time I have one.

Its now going on three years now with this regiment of having them 4 to 5 a week. I think one gets to the point pain wise where you can tolerate a little more... I sure can't say that they hurt any less than they did, say three years ago, that is for sure. The level of head pain that I experience almost daily now used to put me in bed in a dark room hugging a bucket almost every time.

I guess that it means my pain scale has changed somewhat too. What I used to consider a "9" or "10" headache now would be more in the range of a "7" or an"8" probably and where I had a couple of 9s a week back then, I'm having more 6, 7s & 8s...

It can be amazing what the body does to adapt...

I promise to start blogging a bit more both here and at my other regular places starting with ...

Monday, October 17, 2005


Oh, Here I Am, Right Here!

Well it is not that I haven't been posting anywhere or doing anything, I just really haven't been doing much here. It's not like I have a huge following or that anyone really is paying attention to what is said here. I just haven't felt the urge to come back here and update anything. I figured I'd just create my own corner of the World Wide Web and do it there.

Over the last couple of months, I've created
SProctor.Com and a few other places to jot down a few lines. My main set of blogs can be found there at or via Serendipity (An awesome open-source weblog system that I installed) at: SProctor.Com/serendipity/. I have several different threads/categories of blogs going there. There are really three distinct ones at the moment. I'm really having a little fun at the moment learning all of the different tools that are available, especially the open-source ones that seem so abundant. A lot of them seem pretty decent, well thought-out, and well written.

In the coming weeks, you may also find me blogging a little on a very good friend's (Teri Robert) new website:
MigraineDisease.Com I plan on making a small contribution there from time to time as well as continuing to drop by here and relate my personal experiences with migraines. In addition to these sites, I have another article and a book review that I plan to contribute to the Headaches / Migraines area of About.Com in the near future. This site is also being managed and run by Teri Robert, a very well known expert on migraine disease, nationally recognized patient advocate and accomplished author. She is also an absolutely wonderful friend. Though she maintains several others, her main personal migraine website can be found at HelpForHeadaches.Com. You can find out information about her new book and even obtain a signed copy there.

Well, I guess that is enough updating & self-promotion for now. Don't completely write me off, just come and visit me at
SProctor.Com, there are tons of resources & information there along with my blogs that pick-up sorta where this one has left off. For those folks that do know about this blog here on blogger/blogspot, I've not abandoned it totally either, just been a little busy elsewhere.


Stephen A. Proctor

Friday, July 22, 2005


Keeping Me Going…

What keeps me going these days is not something that you hear much about in the media or the annals of medical science. Yep, that’s right… it’s my love for the Lord and my ever growing relationship with Him through prayer. This is not some hokey, barely held together deal involving phrases like “born again” or “saved” though I can appreciate them from my protestant friends. It is not something picked up from some television evangelist nor read in some “tell-all” book about the end of time.

It is something simple that continues to grow within me… a love for Jesus Christ, His Father & the Holy Spirit and a thankfulness for all that He has done & continues to do for me and for that matter, all of mankind. It is very comforting to be laying there in extreme pain and know that there is someone one out there that truly understands what I am going through and all that I have done and still with all of that understanding & knowledge He loves and accepts me for who I truly am.

Sunday, July 17, 2005


Life is at Least Back to Normal....

Life is at least back to normal in the sense that the pain tells me that I am still here. I would sure like to trade with someone for a time just to get some sort of break for a while, this is getting real old, real quick.

I broke a tooth the other day... some would say OUCH, but not I. In fact just to qualify/quantify it I'll explain a little further. It was indeed a healthy tooth and it did in fact, have an exposed root / nerve. Yes, it hurt a lot. The pain of this new problem was absolutely nothing compared to my migraine!

I will never understand why people still refer to these darn things as mere headaches. They just aren't. And if you think these migraines are bad, try throwing a Cluster in on top of it all and you can't help but to wreath about out of your mind... or at least I am.

It is no wonder why folks bang their head against a wall with a Cluster, saying that the feeling of banging their head is better than the pain of the Cluster... I am a true believer.

Friday, July 15, 2005


Back From The Dead...

After days of feeling the ups and downs of being sick and being in the throughs of a really nasty migraine cycle at the same time, I am pretty healthy again... save for the fact I am now in another cycle.

It has been several days, in fact, weeks since I have posted here... I have healed, gotten a shot for my head and had a couple of days totally pain free only to wind up in the depths of another cycle. One this time I am thankful for not being sick with... that was truly awful.

Any way I am back, hopefully I am back for good. I still haven't quite gotten the hang of this blogging thing but hopefully I will soon along with an epiphany concerning its uses and things will be great in the world.

Time will tell... ;-)

Wednesday, July 06, 2005


The E.R. is such a lovely place this time of year...

On the evening of the 4th, while preparing to put my hurting self to bed, I had a terrible coughing fit. I just can't describe to you what that is like with a migraine... pure hell. Sometime within the middle of that coughing attack, I realized things were getting kinda fuzzy and I couldn't catch my breath. I immediately tried slowing the breathing down and grabbed a brown lunch bag outta the cupboard in case I really started to hyperventilate.

By this time the wife is following me around with a worried look on her face offering, what to her sound like reasonable suggestions . I was probably a little hard on her even though she was just trying to help, bless her heart. Things weren't really improving, even after using both my inhaler & some "epi" that I have stashed away for such an emergency. There is just nothing like that feeling of running out of air, especially if your head is about to explode any second.

I finally was able to catch my breath and stop coughing long enough to decide I needed to be seen by somebody and after a couple more spells, I decided it had to be that night. The wife had been through this drill before and beat me to her minivan. It was somewhere around 11 o'clock.

We arrived at the hospital and they got me right in to see the triage nurse. I explained everything to her including the fact that my pain management doctor had me on regular doses of methadone. Within minutes I had my own dark room complete with an emesis bag to throw up in and plenty of oxygen. Life was better.

Their electronic O2 meter said that I was a little low so they set me up on a nebulizer and scheduled an chest x-ray. Several times both the doc & the nurse came into the room asking questions about my migraine... all the while they were getting more short and acting suspecious about the pain. One of the comments was "with 40 milligrams of methadone in you, how could you possibly be in any pain." I wanted to smack each of them. Finally, I just told them to take care of the shortness of breath issues and I'd deal with the migraine when I saw the my doc, early the next day. They immediately got nicer and I was soon on my way to the x-ray department. I was still spuratically coughing & vomiting off & on.

When the x-rays arrived, the ER doc acted really surprised when he stated that I had pneumonia.... What an *** he was. Finally he gave me some antibiotics & some nasty cough syrup and sent me home. It was more of a relief to get outta there than it was to catch my breath...

Saturday, July 02, 2005


It's the Holiday Migraines

Just like usual, a big national holiday rolls up (July 4th) and sure enough... I find myself deeply entangled within the tentacles of a nasty migraine cycle and snared by an even more-vicious set of clusters. It's a real shame since the wife has until Wednesday off from work.

To top it all off I have somehow managed to come down with flu symptoms. What a lovely way to start out the weekend. Right now my head has let up somewhat (I sincerely hope it stays that way, I am totally exhausted). I thought that I'd take a few minutes to address some of my ongoing, open issues, like this blog for instance, and my hosting duties at Headaches dot About dot Com. Anyway, the post here this time will not set any world records for longevity or anything of the sort, that is for sure. I sure wish & pray that folks would be real nice and just leave me alone, sometimes when I'm feeling so out of it, it is so very frustrating. Other times, I am wondering where everybody is and why they aren't pestering me...

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